I forget sometimes to just sit back, take the time to love on my girls with nothing else pressing to do. Michelle and Carolyn have been in Houston all week going to ZooCamp. I am excited that they have this opportunity and that they can both go.
Since, it is just Leah at home, I figured I would get lots of things done. She still takes naps everyday, she goes to bed at a reasonable time and she is only 1 child! Well, other than venturing to the gym and a handful of errands, I have gotten nothing accomplished on my TO DO List!
She has taken full advantage of her big sisters being gone! We have watched TV together, played toys and gone into stores. At night, I have to sing a wide array of songs: Twinkle Twinkle, Jesus Loves Me, Mary Had A Little Lamb and often a new song that I have to quickly make up the words to. I'm pretty sure she has gotten needier!
As I am rocking her in my arms the other night, trying to soothe her to go to sleep, I realize she is my last baby. Unless God has other plans, Leah is our last child. I hold her in my arms, remembering all the snuggles, the hugs, the shhhhh sounds, the rubbing on their backs. Of course I still do most of those things if needed but I don't have the little one, fitting into my arms, snuggling so tight they could almost fit back in the womb. Almost.
As much as I love the talks that I get to have with Michelle and Carolyn about all the different things they learn about the world they are in, the questions they have, especially about God, I already miss the time of holding them as babies, being the one to comfort them perfectly, knowing how to make them happy. As they get older, they get their own thoughts and ideas and I don't always know how to help, how to make them happy again.
As every parent who has raised their children to adulthood knows, you have no idea what they will turn into. You just have to hope and pray you do you best while they grow. I sure hope that I am and by the grace of God I am not messing them up too much! I just know that when Michelle and Carolyn come home tomorrow, I am going to hold them in my arms and snuggle them the best I can. Who knows how long I can.
