Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Off to work

Yesterday was so adorable. Since everyone is home for Thankgiving break, Brian had a few jobs that would be appropriate for him to take the girls to. He took Leah to work in the morning and then Michelle in the afternoon. Leah ended up playing with the customers kids! Michelle helped pump the brakes for Brian and earned $5 before she took an opportunity to go over to a friends house that was next door to the customer! Carolyn didn't go to work with Brian but not wanting her to feel left out, he took her to the store and she got a reward of gum.

 The girls are always sad when Daddy has to go to work when they are off of school. They just want to play with him! It was a great time for him and he always has a special time with them when they are one on one. I hope that the girls will remember these times they get to spend time with their Daddy and that lots of kids cannot go to work with their parents.

 I wished I had taken pics of them going off to work but I will next time!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Paparazzi

Kids are like paparazzi, they follow you everywhere just trying to get a glimpse of you! Looking out windows, knocking on doors, screaming your name. I should be flattered that I am such a celebrity at my house. But I'm not. As with famous people, I'm sure that as nice as it is that people are interested in what they are doing 24/7, do you really need to know how often I am in the bathroom, what I am reading, when I am getting dressed, where am I going, etc? I know, I know, these days will be missed when the girls are older but really? Will I?

We have been working on understanding privacy these days. They ask for it but are still having trouble knowing that other people want some as well. I don't need help getting dressed. I don't need so many questions. I have to go to my car to get something, I will be right back. Yes, I have a meeting and I will be back later. No, you can't come with me. I am going crazy right now and no I don't want you banging on the door asking me what I am doing or screaming/crying because you want in, just because. Of course, as soon as the door is opened, all is right in the world.

They know that if you lay down and put your mouth right at the bottom of the door, your voice will travel so much better than just standing by the door.

There are plenty of times, like right now as I sit in peace and quiet (because everyone is at school) that I wonder if it will be sad someday when this is all I hear and the noises are less frequent. I know that my sensitive ears will appreciate it but my heart will not. Someday my girls will not need me as they do now. Of course, it drives me crazy how much they can need me sometimes but it is there way of saying, "Mommy you are my guide and I don't know what to do without you!" Of course as they grow and are more independent, I know that they are understanding that God is following them wherever they go and that He is their guide.

Children start out being your paparazzi but in the end, you end up being theirs.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

An Eight Year Old and a Three Year Old!

Why do kids keep growing? We celebrated 2 birthdays this past weekend with LOTS of partying! Of course, no I am paying for it by being sick. Anyway, Michelle turned 8 and Leah turned 3! hard to believe!


Michelle has grown so much this past year, has gotten more mature and probably a little more saucy! I have to remind her constantly that she is NOT a teenager yet and should not be carrying her attitude as though she is one! She is definitely wanting more responsibility and I am doing my best to work with that. She wants to take care of her sisters and seriously thinks she is ready to walk to school by herself with her sister, most likely drive a car, and all the other things she thinks she can do! Thankfully we can bring he down from that cloud every so often and remind her to slow down because as soon as she passes these milestones, she'll be wishing she could go back!

Leah has also grown so much. She has such a great heart and loves so beautifully! It is hard to believe she is getting farther away from the baby I have always seen her as! At least she is still small and I can scoop her up and squeeze her! I know that those times are getting closer to being done and knowing she is my baby makes that hard.

My girls are the best gifts I could ever ask for. I have to remind myself that they will grow up and they will not need me as much as they do now and when I am getting irritated by the clothes, toys, shoes, dishes and many other things that are all over the house and by all the snuggling that they want to do when I am trying to cook dinner or do laundry, I know that someday I will be hungering for these moments. Take them now!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

School!

Hard to believe that I now have two girls in elementary school. We are coming to finishing the first two weeks of school and they love it! I am so happy to have girls that WANT to do something everyday. I mean, Carolyn said she wants to live at school! She thinks the weekend just gets in the way of the fun of school! How long will this last? So far, it's the only thing that they are doing right now. Ballet starts next week and then Nutcracker rehearsals will start after that! Then they may get too tired to do be as happy about school! I hope not though!
 I just can't get over that Carolyn is in Kindergarten and Michelle is in 2nd grade! At least Leah still has 3 more years before she goes. I don't think I could handle all of them in school yet. It moves me closer to having to get a job though! I would like for that to take all the time it can getting here! I do not want to go back to working. I enjoy being involved with the girls in every way I can. I love this part of being a mom!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I don't Care!

Hilarious! I was downstairs yesterday, the big girls and I had just returned from a day at the waterpark. Leah stayed home so we could do more slides together with our friends. Carolyn was talking to Leah from downstairs as Leah looked over the balcony.

"We went to the waterpark and you didn't!" says Carolyn, in a mocking tone that will be getting her into trouble quickly.

"I don't care. I don't care, Carolyn!" shouts Leah.

I was dying laughing at her big girl attitude as she shook off Carolyn's meanness. Leah definitely can hold her own!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Father's Day

What a day. Father's Day is maybe a card day, mostly a way to sell greeting cards and is definitely not the day like Mother's Day. Fathers are not near as recognized as moms. Yes, there are many more things that moms do than dads most of the time but I believe that we are equal in so many ways.

Dads love, play, discipline, pray for our children. For me, my dad is my protector, even though I am no longer at home. He wants the best for me and wants the best for my children. For my kids, their dad is their playmate, protector and earner of our financial security. He has a love of God and wants the girls to have that same love for Him. He is teaching them that God is our father unlike our earthly father.

Brian has been an amazing dad even though he has girls! He loves them each so wonderfully. He plays with them in a way that I could never play. He has patience for them that I do not have. He watches cartoons and sings songs with them! It is so funny to watch him with the girls. I see so much of him in each of the girls. It is so funny!

Brian has a lot to fulfill as a dad because he does have 3 girls. He has the role of a man and the girls are learning what kind of man that they should find. I am so thankful that they have him to look up to. He is an amazing person and I am so blessed to have him as the father to my daughters!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Snuggles

I forget sometimes to just sit back, take the time to love on my girls with nothing else pressing to do. Michelle and Carolyn have been in Houston all week going to ZooCamp. I am excited that they have this opportunity and that they can both go.

Since, it is just Leah at home, I figured I would get lots of things done. She still takes naps everyday, she goes to bed at a reasonable time and she is only 1 child! Well, other than venturing to the gym and a handful of errands, I have gotten nothing accomplished on my TO DO List!

She has taken full advantage of her big sisters being gone! We have watched TV together, played toys and gone into stores. At night, I have to sing a wide array of songs: Twinkle Twinkle, Jesus Loves Me, Mary Had A Little Lamb and often a new song that I have to quickly make up the words to. I'm pretty sure she has gotten needier!

As I am rocking her in my arms the other night, trying to soothe her to go to sleep, I realize she is my last baby. Unless God has other plans, Leah is our last child. I hold her in my arms, remembering all the snuggles, the hugs, the shhhhh sounds, the rubbing on their backs. Of course I still do most of those things if needed but I don't have the little one, fitting into my arms, snuggling so tight they could almost fit back in the womb. Almost.

As much as I love the talks that I get to have with Michelle and Carolyn about all the different things they learn about the world they are in, the questions they have, especially about God, I already miss the time of holding them as babies, being the one to comfort them perfectly, knowing how to make them happy. As they get older, they get their own thoughts and ideas and I don't always know how to help, how to make them happy again.

As every parent who has raised their children to adulthood knows, you have no idea what they will turn into. You just have to hope and pray you do you best while they grow. I sure hope that I am and by the grace of God I am not messing them up too much! I just know that when Michelle and Carolyn come home tomorrow, I am going to hold them in my arms and snuggle them the best I can. Who knows how long I can.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Ballerinas!

Here are our ballerinas before their recital! This is Carolyn's first and Michelle's 3rd Spring Recital for A Time to Dance. They were so wonderful and Carolyn even got to dance twice! It's crazy how different and grown up they look when you have makeup on them! Thankfully it's still just for this!
Here is a quick video of Carolyn practicing her dance. She is in the middle!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Cleansing

Why is this so hard to do? I need to go through the girls things, get rid of stuff, purging their toys, clothes, etc. It is a challenge. Especially when you have 3 girls at different stages of playing, growth and personality. Clothes are getting easier but Brian says I keep way to much. Though, now that I have a niece, she can wear all of what I saved! I suppose once I have gone down the nieces phase (assuming I will have more!) then I can get rid of more clothes. It's not my fault I had 3 girls! Erin says that Ellen has a new outfit for everyday till she's 1! Ha, that's what 3 girls gets you, a LOT of clothes!

Toys is another matter. I want to get rid of some stuff but then as soon as I think I can, someone plays with it! Ahhhh, please just grow out of it already! There are definitely things that I have gotten better about though.

1. Don't save puzzles that don't have all the pieces anymore, you will not find the missing ones and if you do, you won't want to figure out which puzzle it goes to.
2. Don't save board games for the same reason. The good games are always around forever, ie Candyland, Shutes and Ladders, etc.
3. Toys are not made like they used to be! Things are getting more cheaply made and kids are hard on them.
4. Don't save it if it's broken. You will not find the time to glue/sew/patch it back together (see #3).
5. Don't let your kid have something you don't want ruined, broken, used for who knows what in tea parties. You'd be surprised what I find after a tea party (see rule #4).
6. Which reminds me, tea parties should be sanctioned. Unofficial tea parties always lead to trouble.
7. If your child has a table in their room, make sure the rules are clearly defined as to why it is there (see rule #5 and #6).
I am all about storing things and keeping them but there will be a point when the attic is full and I will have to go through the contents and do some more purging. I WILL NOT get myself to the point that Clean House or Hoarders will need to come to get me some help. Brian would disagree but I just remind him of all the money that I have saved from not getting rid of clothes or toys when we have had another kid and that now we get a great tax write off when I finally decide to let go!

Friday, April 29, 2011

Princesses

I was so excited to watch the Royal Wedding this morning. I wanted to experience it so that I could remember where I was and who I was with. I woke up Michelle so that she could watch it with me and then Carolyna dn Leah woke up in time also. The four of us sat on the couch and were just in awe of the simpleness but beauty of the wedding. We loved the trees in Westminster Abbey and the long red aisle.

The girls were amazed that there are real life princes and princesses! Michelle kept asking " Mommy is she a princess yet?" and "When are they going to kiss?". She is so funny, I really think that it was making an impact on her! Brian woke up to us all sitting on the couch watching and told the girls that if they want to get married like that, then they will need to marry a prince. An actual prince! Well, I'm sure we can make them look like princesses when their time comes.

What a fun way to wake up and spend time with my girls though. It keeps their fairytale alive, even if it is far from our real life!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

5th Birthday!

Carolyn is my best party girl! She loves having birthdays! She was so happy yesterday celebrating her 5th birthday! I can't beleive she is now 5!!! She could not stop taklking about the fact that she is now 5 and that it apparently is a number she has been dying to get to! I suppose that it's because she is now able to go to school with Michelle in the fall. I just love how happy she was and is with her birthday! What a blessing. More posts to come from the Candyland party happening this Saturday!!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Being a Parent is Harder than I Thought

When you are a little girl growing up, you often imagine yourself as a mom. Whenever you play house, you are the mom and you have babies to take care of. So many times I see my girls going through this same act as I once did. Rocking their babies, feeding them a bottle, burping them, changing diapers and of course spanking. Pretty much what kids see their own moms doing! I don't think that I ever played at having kids in elementary school or really anything other than a baby. So, other than being a child myself, I was not prepared. Girls are emotional. They are dramatic. They react to everything that happens as if it is the end of the world. I guess I was fortunate that I had brothers and it taught me to have a tough skin. Girls are so hard. Physically they are not too rough, they don't get hurt as often as boys do. Anyone that says that girls are easier has not experienced girl drama! Raising children is hard, no matter what gender! It scares me that someday my girls will be hormonal teenagers! They are so special to me and love in their own ways. I have gone through school meetings, friend issues and hurt feelings lately and I just don't remember this growing up. By the grace of God I am still here and love my girls where they are at. I am learning that each child has their own way of being who they are and they are still figuring it out themselves. I am constantly reminded that my girls are very different from each other. God created them to be unique and they are that! I am thankful for them and I know that my faith is constantly tested with them! Thank goodness I have that though! I'd be lost without HIM!

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Saying Goodbye!

Well, I would hate to not go and say that we are now done with diapers. It has been a long time and I almost cried when I gave the rest of them to church this morning. I've been friends with diapers for a straight 7 1/2 years. It was hard to say goodbye. They have always been there for me! At night when I don't have to worry about bedwetting, on long trips, so we don't have to pull over at a rest stop or (don't judge me) the side of the road. When I didn't want to know my kids bathroom schedule in every detail, well, until later anyway. It has been a great journey but it had to end sometime. What to do with $20 extra at Sams Club? What about wipes? Well, those will stay forever. At least I have them to help me through this time of change. I never thought that I would miss them, Shhh, don't tell anyone. As I get farther away from this phase, I won't think about it anymore. Accept maybe on that drive to Harlingen, Houston, or Kansas City! Thanks for all the memories Diapers!

Copying!

Last night, the girls were taking baths together. Michelle and Carolyn always have Barbie bathing with them. Leah got to have one for herself last night. Of course, Michelle and Carolyn are always having conversations with the dolls, one is usually the mom and the other is the child. So, I am in there and hear Leah doing the same thing as they are, all by herself! It was so cute. She's having a little conversation with Barbie, having the best time talking and the big girls have no idea! I love when Leah copies them, it's so adorable that she wants to be like her big sisters. Someday that won't be the case but how I cherish that time right now!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Serious talks.

Carolyn is my serious one. She does her best serious talks in the car, on the way to school, to ballet, the gym, wherever we go.
So, the other day, she tells me, "Mommy, I need to have a serious talk." Well, it must be very important. Her face is so concerned and it really must be something troubling her.
"Mommy, did you know that if you're a kid and you get in a car and the windows are up, you could DIE!"
"Well, yes, Carolyn. I do know that. It's important to not stay in the car alone. It's not safe." I say to confirm her information.
"No Mommy, you can't breathe if the windows aren't open and you will Die. But you will go to heaven, so that would be okay!"
I respond, "That's good that you would go to Heaven but hopefully we won't have to worry about it for a long time."
"Yes, I KNOW MOMMY! But there was this girl, well, it's not a real story, but there was this girl who was looking for her mom at the mall and she couldn't find her, so she went to the car to see if she was there and then she was in the car by herself and she DIED!"
" Well, I'm glad it wasn't a real story but it could happen." I say to reassure her of my hearing her story.
"Yeah" Carolyn says, bored with the conversation.

I don't even get her started on the fact that this "girl" has lost her mom and has walked to the car alone and was able to get into it withou the mother's knowledge! Always an interesting story with Carolyn!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

We are still here, Snow Day 5!!!!

So, we are onto another week, and another snow day! We survived the long days off last week only to have today as another snow day. So, it was bad this morning but now it is pretty tolerable on the roads. Too bad they didn't start school late today. I could have used one less child.

However, they have been wonderful! (Wait, maybe I shouldn't have said anything, I think I just cursed myself!) They brushed their teeth, got dressed and watched a movie this morning so that I could go back to bed. Well, I confess that Carolyn came in my bed at some point in the night and Leah was not too far behin. Four people in bed made for a little less sleep on my part. Not to mention that Benji got out and I was worried about him being in the cold and he didn't come home till midnight. Way past his curfew! So, I was more just treading water than getting to sleep in!

Anyway, I have managed to get Michelle to decide on a science fair project (checking her heart rate), got both of their bedrooms picked up and vacuumed by them and now they have nothing to do so they are annoying each other! Yeah!!!!

Well, at least they have clean rooms and I feel a little better about things! Now, to finish out the day!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Snow Day 2

Really? Why does it always get worse before it gets better? Okay, I used up all my fun yesterday. I should have listened to Brian, again. The roads are now icy. The fun we were trying to make by walking across the ice but breaking it, has now truly become a crosswalk. Slippery, dangerous, neighbors can't get to their houses up the street because we are on a slight hill. It's hard to get momentum on the bottom and driving up a street that has cars on it is challenging as well! There was no mail yesterday, no trash yesterday. I suspected there would be none today, and at least I was right on that!

Now it is COLD. 5degrees outside with windchill -12. Not a place I send my kids for much fun. They were out for all of 10 minutes I think. So, guess who is the entertainment? Oh no, not me, the TV! I listened to arguing, debates, teasing, crying, whinning, and angry stomping, all before 9am. Leah has cried about something all day. Of course she makes me feel bad about not liking her for a few hrs when she decides to get in my lap on the couch and fall asleep. Why do kids melt you like that? It's just not fair!

Brian has been home for 2 days also, wanting to go here and there, driving around! Really? He did take Michelle and Carolyn to the pond in the neighborhood to see if you could walk on it. They took Benji for the test dummy. Poor dog, he was so cold when they got back. Apparently the pond isn't frozen yet!

They are roasting marshmallows again as I am getting to finally be on the computer alone. No wonder why I never post anymore! I don't type as well with 1 hand! It helps that I am enjoying martinis tonight. I don't think I could make it to bedtime tonight otherwise. But when you have a drink that looks fun, kids want some too. So, Mommy made kid martinis and it's amazing how wonderful they've been ever since! (Well, the sugar from the marshmallows helps!).

However, even though I survived Day 2, I don't know if they will on Day 3............

Snow Day 1

I knew it was coming. I was ready. The school district even called people before 10pm the night before the rain, sleet, snow, wind came through! I still got up at 5am to a child hearing the wind and being scared. I did manage to go back to sleep but then woke up at 6am ready for my day.

I tried soooo hard to be quiet, I didn't even start coffee! (That is hard to do for me when it's the first thing I do every morning) I did not turn lights on. I turned on the TV but very quietly. I made it till 6:30a and Carolyn and Leah head downstairs, happy as always for their day to begin!

Michelle I think made it till 7a but I'm sitting on the couch thinking, "Why do my kids wake up with no trouble on a day they don't have a schedule?" So, I make pancakes, to get the kids a good breakfast in as I know that there will be a fun day playing in the new snow! I even decide to go out for awhile. I try so hard to let my kids kids see my fun side every now and then!




Well, the snow was more like 3 inches of sleet and the first layer was ice so you couldn't get to the ground easily. So, plan B on being outside. We started finding places we could try to walk on ice. The girls found it facinating that up north you can ice skate on that! After a few large gusts of wind (reports that it would be up to 50mph) we decided to stay in. Well, at least till Brian got the idea to go driving around. Well, Brian is all proud that he lived in Minnesota for awhile and was driving on ice all the time. So, I figured, what the heck, I'll endanger the lives of my children and myself for a joy ride as a family! Actually, it was kind of fun. I doubted him for nothing, as I do every time we have a storm. I am a Texas through and through. I don't drive in this.

Well, Snow Day 1 was a good day. We had marshmallows for dessert and sat by the warm toasty fire. Temps were dropping and the wind chill was getting into the negatives. Then the school called to say we would have another snow day.........

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Cute laughs

Why is it that when you are so frustrated with your kids and can't wait to get them dropped off at school so you can have peace and quiet, they do something to regret your thoughts?

I was taking Carolyn and Leah to school and we were late, of course, and I was so frustrated with them. I've never seen people move so slow until having children. (Of course the exception to the rule is when there is sugar involved. It's amazing how quickly they can move then!) Anyway, we are getting in the car and Benji (the dog) decides he wants to come too. Great, that's all I need. The dog can be annoying and I was already at my limit!

Obviously God knew what we all needed with that little dog. The girls giggled and laughed and squealed with delight the whole way to preschool. All because the dog was in the car. Nothing more. He did nothing exciting, in fact he laid down most of the drive. But to them it was the best treat. I couldn't help but smile when I was driving, being reminded that kids are on a different schedule and have a different perspective on things. Where I saw a dog and a burden, they saw the fun and excitement!

How I wish that I would look at things more the way they do. They have showed me my "mad" face and I just think, what do they see more? "Mad" or "Happy". I love my girls and I know that all parents go through this time when they are frustrated and exhausted. I just need to remember that I have two friends that are receiving their sweet children through adoption and they would have loved to have had the moment that I did.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Santa!


Santa is so awesome! I always thought that I would not enjoy Christmas as much when I no longer had Santa visiting me. I mean, at some point, he really needs to be focusing on the kids! I was so wrong! Santa coming for my kids is way better!


The girls were so concerned with what he would bring, hoe he would know and if he would be able to bring everything they wanted and more! They spent days writing lists, Michelle wrote her letter to Santa and then helped Carolyn write hers. Apparently she didn't think Leah needed one. She never said why though!
After the girls got their letters sealed in an envelope and addressed to Santa with a stamp, they stalked the mail lady until they could giver her the letters! Little did I know, she took it and a few weeks later, Santa wrote back! If I had known this as a kid, I would be writing Santa all the time! They were so excited to get a personal letter from Santa but started getting upset that they forgot some things and didn't think he would know!
So, we had to go see Santa before Christmas! The girls did great, Santa asked them what they wanted and Michelle said roller skates, Carolyn said Fashion Fairytale Barbie and Leah wanted presents. Leah was much more open which I guess is why she didn't have a letter! She would be happy with anything! It's funny because the girls said the things on their list after all the worrying!
Well, in their eyes, Christmas and Santa was a success because they all got what they asked for and more! We had such a great time being together with friends and family, as well as just being our little (or not so little) family.
Only 1 more day before school goes back and we have to start taking down the decorations. I am sad for this but I know that it will be plenty of time for the girls to think about what to put in their letter for next Christmas. Perhaps even Leah will have a letter next time!