I have realized that it is hard to give love to each child in exactly the right amount all the time. I have got to remember to multiply my love instead of spread it. Since Leah is still nursing, I spend so much time with her. Then, I don't want to leave Carolyn out of getting enough love since she isn't the youngest any more. Michelle, I sometimes forget that she is still in need of Mommy time and just Mommy.
After Leah and Carolyn went to bed last night, Michelle and I hung out together. Just laid on the couch and watched TV. Daddy was out with a friend so it was just the big girls. She just wanted to be close to me. Not sharing me and not having to do anything.
It made me think about how much she wants to be a big girl and miss independent but at the same time, wants to be my little girl. She will be in Kindergarten in the fall and I know I will miss her being around everyday. I want to make sure that each of my girls feels loved individually as well as together by both Brian and I. They are precious.
This parenting thing can be so rewarding and so trying at the same time. It truly is a learn as you go experience. It makes me think about how our parents were and what they thought was the best for us. I just keep thinking about what my kids will someday think of me and hope that I give them many reasons to be loved!
