Growing Up

I have realized that it is hard to give love to each child in exactly the right amount all the time. I have got to remember to multiply my love instead of spread it. Since Leah is still nursing, I spend so much time with her. Then, I don't want to leave Carolyn out of getting enough love since she isn't the youngest any more. Michelle, I sometimes forget that she is still in need of Mommy time and just Mommy.

After Leah and Carolyn went to bed last night, Michelle and I hung out together. Just laid on the couch and watched TV. Daddy was out with a friend so it was just the big girls. She just wanted to be close to me. Not sharing me and not having to do anything.

It made me think about how much she wants to be a big girl and miss independent but at the same time, wants to be my little girl. She will be in Kindergarten in the fall and I know I will miss her being around everyday. I want to make sure that each of my girls feels loved individually as well as together by both Brian and I. They are precious.

This parenting thing can be so rewarding and so trying at the same time. It truly is a learn as you go experience. It makes me think about how our parents were and what they thought was the best for us. I just keep thinking about what my kids will someday think of me and hope that I give them many reasons to be loved!

Holidays

The holidays have been great. We have traveled a ton, and now I am ready to stay home for awhile. The girls have been enjoying all of their toys that Santa brought them and it makes things so much more enjoyable for me! Since the big girls got bigger toys this year, that meant I had to go through their old stuff and organize and get rid of some things. I was hoping that we could donate a lot of stuff but it turns out, mostly I'm throwing away. How is that? How is it that I have managed to let trash pile up in their room? I guess I get too sentimental sometimes with stuff.
Brian says I'm somewhat of a pack rat but I don't think so. I see plenty of people who have way more stuff that us! With that said, we are still able to donate some stuff but the girls don't quite get it. Michelle keeps asking me "Why don't all kids have toys?" She doesn't understand that some people don't have much money, especially for toys. I know that it is a hard concept to understand since she has most of what she desires. I know that over time she will get it. Maybe sometime we will go to a place where she can better understand charity. I know she definitely would have a heart for it once she understood!
We managed to see all of the grandparents this year. We are so glad that we could. It made for lots of traveling but in my new Ford Expedition, it was very comfy! Now I'm ready for school to start up again so that the house can be quiet for a few hrs a couple days a week! I need my routine to come back. I don't know what I'm going to do this summer though! At least I've got a few months to plan!